Constant

I am cold with a constant 

beat inside my head.

I tap my foot,

impatiently wait for bed.

I am cold with constant

negativity in my head.

Close my eyes,

hope desperately for the best.

I am cold with constant

tension in my thoughts.

Hold God's hands,

beg for His forgiveness

because I do not believe

but the pain is too great

to not be some sort of divine

and this is the only kind

I've ever known.

I am cold with constant

frozen sadness in my veins.

Tap my foot,

try to stay within my guided lanes.

I am cold with constant

uncertainty in my mind.

Close my eyes,

desperately wish it was peace

I'd find.